There’s a new man in my life – the car guy.  He owns a body shop and is really into cars.  And me.  We met on an online dating site and hit it off really well.  The only bad thing is that he lives about an hour from me – same town the kid was in.  So we’ll be doing a lot of driving to  make this work, but I think it’s doable.  I spent almost all day with him Sunday and then he came up for dinner last night.  Tonight he’s coming up for dinner and a movie.  Hopefully we’ll be able to spend Friday together since I have the day off for the holiday.

One of the really cool things about him is he was married to someone who has bipolar so he understands me a little better.  Apparently his ex-wife doesn’t manage hers very well though.  So far he’s been very in tune to my moods and emotions, which is nice.  I didn’t tell him about the BPD – figured there’s no sense in it.  I’m doing much better managing it these days so it shouldn’t be a problem.

I’m still going to the damn DBT classes and still don’t feel like I’m getting anything out of it.  Mom says she can tell a difference though, I’m less quick to fly off the handle when things don’t go exactly like I planned.  I guess I can see that.

And I finally cut the kid loose.  It was a lot easier than I thought it would be.  He called Sunday while I was on my date and I told him I was out and would call him later.  When I called him he asked me what I’d decided and I told him I’d decided to stick with the car guy.  He said, “so I guess that’s it, huh?”  And I said I guessed so.  I haven’t heard from him since.  Seriously it was a no brainer – the car guy has a job, a car, a place to live, much more potential for a future together.

The only potential downside is that the car guy also has 3 kids – one of which lives with him full time.  And we all know how I feel about kids.  But if it’s meant to be then I’ll get along with his kids and it’ll all work out.  I’m just not going to worry about it right now.