So I told my therapist what he could do with the DBT class and he said that was fine, but he wouldn’t keep seeing me and neither would my DR. WTF?!?!?! Apparently, because they think this is the best treatment for me, if I don’t comply they’re going to cut off all treatment. Now I see one of the best DRs and therapists in this area and it took me awhile to find them, so I don’t want to just give them up. But I don’t want to take the classes either, so I am stuck. And chances are good that even if I did find another DR/therapist they’d do the same thing to me. So it’s back to the fucking class I go. Needless to say, I am royally pissed off about this.
Things with the car guy have not improved. I did get a short phone call last night, which was nice, but it’s not enough. I don’t even want to try to ask him when I’ll get to see him again, I’m afraid it would just start a fight. My date Tuesday went pretty good. He’s a nice enough guy, very attentive, easy to talk to. He’s just not my usual type and he’s not been overly communicative since I saw him. So who knows what’ll happen with that situation. I wish my love life would improve a little bit.
Tuesday I passed out in the shower and ended up hurting myself. I’ve got a huge bruise on my ass and another one on my left arm. Sitting is painful, as is getting up, and laying down’s not that great either. It’s making it even harder to sleep, which is not a good thing. My sleep lately has been very patchy. It takes me a long time to fall asleep and then once I’m out I don’t stay that way – I wake up every few hours. I couldn’t tell you the last time I got a good night’s sleep. I’m starting to think that such a thing just isn’t going to happen for me anytime soon, which sucks. I can’t even nap during the day anymore – I just can’t get my brain to shut down long enough.
